Today I have been grumpy. I mean REALLY GRUMPY. I don't know what's wrong with me...nor do I wish to find out. I just want to soak in my state of grumpiness and take comfort in biting peoples heads off.
You know it is just so annoying when God tells you to do something...and its not that easy of a thing to do, but you do it...half because your willing and half because you want to look like the "bigger person," the one who chose to scarifies when they didn't have to and then everything blows up in your face.
And on top of all of that I am dissatisfied with my hair.
In some weird, freaked out, moment of insanity I had my hair cut...way shorter than I have had it in 8 years and the first couple of weeks it was great...a nice change and everything, now I am doing everything I can to talk my hair into growing faster.
You have no idea how stress relieving it would be if I could pull all of my hair into a pony tail again without all of these short hairs falling out in the back and trying to find all kinds of clips to hold the little hairs up.
I am trying to be all things cheerful, compared to..well almost anything, hair trouble is nothing at all.
I assume that I can get over it in a matter of minutes and think about something else.

I am very frustrated with church right now. Not a new story, I know, but it is always popping into my thoughts and chewing on my brain for a while until I can drowned it out with something else.
I have not been going to crestview at all, and I don't feel bad about it..at all. Crestview is not God, and how often I attend there does not determine where I am spiritually...I am at ease with this...its these other people that don't get it. Randee imed me the other day and asked me if I had decided to become a Satanist since I haven't been coming to church. No hi, how are you, what's up...nothing...and then when I gave her my honest answer...she treated it as an excuse. I haven't completely lost my head, I know she is only 13 years old...but its the fact that she and many other people, young and old, seem to have been trained that to sell yourself to Crestview you are doing Gods will, stop coming and you have lost you spiritual credibility...and worse if you go somewhere else you are a trader
Okay...I am gonna stop now.

Okay, maybe it's just me, but does asking jr.high and high school kids to bring their friends to church so they can have a chance to win ten thousand dollars, sound like a bribe to anyone else??? Doesn't just seem wronge?
Thats what we are doing at Crestveiw. Ten thousand dollars will be given to the visitor who on the appointed day can make these three different basketball shots in 25 second. I am just wondering if I am the only person who finds this absured.